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Being blackmailed for sex - help?

Posted: Fri Jun 22, 2018 5:17 pm
by stella1976
I am here because I am in a really bad situation and I need some advice on what to do.This is so upsetting to me I don’t think I can discuss this verbally with anyone without bursting into tears.I came here hoping someone can give me some advice, or even some words of comfort. I am feeling so sad. I am truly lost.I’m confused and my mind doesn’t stop. I really worry that I’m going to lose myself completely! I wish I had found this site under better circumstances but unfortunately, I didn't. I know I will probably catch a lot of mess for what I did. I am a 41 year old woman. My husband and I have been married for 13 years and have a 12 year old daughter! Last year I cheated. I met this guy who is four years younger than me. It was an ten month affair from January 2017 until November 2017, and my husband and I were already talking about divorce, but he didn’t know I was having an affair.

I realized one day that I wanted to stay with my husband and that I did love him more than anything. I told the other guy that it was over.I told him that my family is too precious to lose and that I can't sleep with him anymore. This guy, my affair partner, moved to another state in December 2017. I am 5 ft 10 tall heterosexual curvy hourglass shaped attractive brunette. I have very large breasts and I do have a big butt. I don't intend to dress in any particular 'way' for anyone. I just wear what I like. I don't 'ask' for anything. I wear clothes that fit me properly. Most of my outfit are satin pant and skirt suits satin coats and satin and silk blouses. I am always on high heels and full make up on. If you are curvy, tall and busty, many clothes tend to look sexier on you than on a thin person. So things that fit properly that are relatively conservative can be suddenly too revealing and sexy when you put it on. This happens to me a lot. I wear almost always my satin and silk blouses fully buttoned to the top combined with a satin skirt or satin pants. I don't wear anything vulgar but because of my body type anything i wear looks tight on me. Being tall and curvy draws attention on its own. This can be both positive and negative. I tower over plenty of men and women. I was sexualised from a very early age, and shamed for the way my body looks - something I have no control over. I can't help how wide my hips grow or how big my breasts get.

My mother used to shame me for the way my body looked. If I wanted to wear a skirt or dress, she always discouraged it, she always thought my skirt was 'too short' or 'too tight', or there was something wrong with my dress-sense. There's always guys flirting or asking me for my number. When I go out in public guys start talking to me and subtly try to ask me out. I mention I have a husband but some of them wont go away. I have trouble being mean so i cant get them to leave me alone.

A week ago on my way home from work i stopped at the super market. This woman my affair partner's cousin was there on the parking lot. She is short like 5 ft 3 skinny ugly freckled face creepy green eyes thin lips red haired masculine woman in her early 50s. She walked up to me and said that she has a video of me having sex with my lover(her cousin). She said that she would expose me. I asked how she would do this and she told me that when we (me and my affair partner) last had sex, he filmed it. She said that she'll keep it our secret if I let her have sex with me when she wants. This woman is really short. She was standing in front of me her head was exactly the level of my breasts. What does she do next?????????? SHE STARTS FEELING MY BREASTS WITH BOTH HANDS!!!!!!!! Omfg!! Feeling MY boobs right there in the middle of parking lot. Yep I'm getting felt up by this short skinny ugly old woman while i am standing there.

She said "Wow! Your breasts are massive! You are blessed with big boobs. You are so tall, big and soft. You stupid, stuck up, overdressed cow!" She commented on how soft they feel. She was manhandling my breasts and i was totally in shock and speechless. I just stood there like frozen not saying a word while she was squeezing and feeling up my breasts. I was embarrassed from anyone walking past and seeing it. I didn’t say anything or tell her to stop. As i was walking to the supermarket entrance she was walking behind me with her both hands rubbing my ass threatening me that she is going to post the video online and that she will tell my husband everything about my affair. I tried to walk fast but i was on 5inch high heels. Then she left. Since then this hideous short skinny old pervert woman texted me every day. Non stop. She demanded me to do stuff on my webcam. She wanted me to strip and show myself on cam. I ignored her text messages.

Yesterday as i was leaving work she was waiting on the parking lot. She walked up to me and gave me a side hug. Then she started rubbing and squeezing my breasts with her right hand and rubbing and slapping my ass with her left hand. I was standing still, stiff as a board not saying a word. She was all over me, groping me, pressing onto me, slapping my butt. My colleagues were passing by and they were totally weirded out. This awful woman said "Wow you are so tall, big and soft. Your boobs are so massive, soft and squishy. You're mine... your body is my property and i own you. You're stuck with me. You stupid stuck up cow!" She demanded me to go over to her house. I refused and pushed her. She threatened me that she is going to to put the video of me having sex with my lover (her cousin) on the internet and send the video to my husband, my parents, my friends unless i let her have sex with me when she wants. She said that she is going to publicly feel my boobs and grab my ass when ever she feels like it! She hugged me from behind and cupped my breasts with her both hands and proceed to hump me. She said in a really pervy, disgusting way as if I am not there, as if she is appreciating a piece of artwork in a gallery 'Your breasts are so massive and round.....wow... Oh my god how sexy. What do you expect? You are so tall with your huge boobs your big round firm ass your flashy clothes. You're so sexy!" That lasted for like 10 minutes. Instead of outrage, i felt a strange, paralyzing shame. I was just standing there stiff as a board. I didn't even told her to stop humping me, groping me, rubbing me. Then she left.

I am physically stronger than this hideous pervert weirdo woman. I am 5ft10 tall well built well endowed and curvy.She is like 5ft3 tall skinny. I am always on high heels she is always in sneakers. Standing next to me she looks like a midget. But I can't just punch her in the face. I am physically stronger than her, she is short and skinny, but i have never been in a fight my whole life. I am afraid of any kind of physical altercation.

I am 100% straight.I've never had any desire to do anything sexual with a female. In all honest just thinking about possibly kissing a female makes me cringe. If that video gets out, not only would I lose my home,my husband and my daughter, my reputation and that of my family would be destroyed.
Please I need urgent advice. I am born here in this town and have been living here my whole live. My parents are well known and respected members in this community. This pervert awful woman moved here in my town a year ago.

What can I do? I am 100% straight. I have no desire to do anything sexual with a woman. This woman is repulsive to me. I feel so harassed, scared, confused.I can’t tell anyone really…I feel trapped.I keep trying to tell myself I can handle this but really I don’t know.I’m really ashamed.This is all so confusing. I DO NOT want to have sex with this ugly creepy woman, but I feel like I don't have a choice. PLEASE HELP!!